For as long as I can remember I have been into musclemen and BDSM. In the ealry 1980's I took up bodybuilding myself but for all the wrong reasons, so after about 4 years I had enough of the sport. Always thought that if I became a bodybuilder that other bodybuilders would be into the same sexual stuff I was. I was so wrong.

In the following years I on and off attempted to become a bodybuilder, but my heart still wasn't in it so - again - I dropped out. 

In 1999 I picked up where I left and was making real good progress and in 2003 someone told me that I should aim at competing in bodybuilding at the Gay Games of 2006. I liked the idea and started training harder and harder. Then in 2004 disaster struck: due to a mysterious neurological disorder I was unable to workout for 5 years.

Now, in 2009, I am even more motivated to compete in bodybuilding than ever before and now I am doing it for all the right reasons: for myself!!!!

But I still find it hard to find the right soulmate. And with this I mean a man who is both into hardcore bodybuilding and BDSM. For some strange reason the gay bodybuilders of today are more into muscle worship than anything else. And that's, I think, where I differ from the majority: muscle worship just doesn't do it for me. Now don't get me wrong! I can admire a bodybuilder for being big or even freaky huge, but it doesn't give me a hardon or stimulate my sexdrive. A bodybuilder in leather or rubber who's into BDSM and domination however, really gets my juices flowing. 

My question to you guys is this: Am I alone with this fetish or are there more bodybuilders out there who are into leather, rubber, BDSM and domination?